It’s been a busy day. I was teaching so I didn’t have much time to think about the date. I was too busy dealing with tummy aches and sight words, addition and subtraction.
You see I didn’t realize until it was calendar time what today’s date was. December 5th. Eleven years ago on December 5th, I was living a lie and it was revealed to everyone I knew. It was a very traumatic experience and one I still feel the weight of. I’ve learned how to live with it and not let it define me, BUT on this day every year, it’s fresh again.
Do you understand what I mean?
I think all of us have a date or two that is significant to us, in either a good or a bad way.
When life happens we tend to pay attention to the date, I’m not sure why we do this. It’s almost punishing ourselves. It’s as if we want to live in the past, well maybe you don’t really, but dwelling on a date can cause you to feel stuck in your past. I am grateful that I was busy today. I’m grateful I didn’t spend the day dwelling on the negative emotions from December 5th, 2007.
Instead I’ve decided to focus on what was good on December 5th, 2018!
-I am teaching 1st grade & love it
-My boys are happy and healthy, the highlight of their day was a gingerbread cookie and candy cane
-My amazing husband was volunteering at an after school care program
-We went out to eat as a family
-I got lots of snuggles from my boys because….baby it’s cold outside!
You see, the person I was on this day 11 years ago is not the same person I am today. The person I am today won’t be the same person 10 years from now.
If you are like me and dates mess you up!! Take heart you are not alone! If you are perfect and not affected by trivial things like dates on a calendar, congratulations, this post is not meant for you.
I only share my brokenness in hopes to spread the encouraging love, forgiveness and grace of God. For without Him I am nothing.
So tell me…What is good today??
Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. -Philippians 4:8